Nothing Came from Walking – A Confrontation with the Dreaming World Underlying Physical Illness

“Conor has written an wondrous, awesome, almost poetic account mixing reality, dreaming and the dreambody nature of physical symptoms!”
Dr Arnold Mindell
Physicist, Jungian psychologist, founder and developer of Process Oriented Psychology.

This book is written as a living process and as an interaction with the deepest aspects of human consciousness; it is a real moment to moment experience from beginning to end.

The reader follows a journey that the author took for a period of a month in Gozo, Malta; a journey through the dreaming experiences of outer events in the physical world that preceded the author’s awareness of having cancer. On the last day of this month-long sabbatical from ordinary life, and at the airport before leaving, the first physical symptoms of prostate cancer appeared. So the many uncanny experiences - confrontations with an empty monk that would kill or bring life; a praying mantis that existed both internally and in the real external world simultaneously; existence experienced from outside of the body and identity; the spectre of death in the form of a laughing clown, and other frightening figures that appeared on the island - were seen as a sort of dreaming structure, or inner anatomy of cancer before it manifested: a terrible inner reality intent on death.

This book is not really about illness, however, but wellness. It is about the triumph of the human being in the midst of physical, psychological and spiritual challenges; it is about the nature and underlying structure of consciousness, but most of all it is about detachment and wholeness – the freedom to soar and sing through, and because of, difficulty. In the pages of this book there is a gift, a tool, a key, for anyone who suffers an imprisoned spirit.